A picture is worth a thousand words...

Some days I feel amazing.  I eat healthy, I want to go for my run, I look forward to cleaning and cooking, and I feel pretty invincible.  Other days, I struggle.  The overall "aesthetic" of my life seems to be made up of the patchwork that the days form when they meld together in my memory.  For extended periods of time I'm up on top and for some periods of time I'm kicking my legs as hard as I can just to keep my head above water.  Unfortunately, when I'm sinking, I stop doing a lot of the things I love like blogging, exercise, eating healthy...  My post today is a sure-fire sign that the tides have turned and I've found my feet on a sandy beach somewhere.

I recently took a trip to Florida and found myself in the unforgiving sun.  New York gets warm in the summer but we're not talking Florida warm and I work (for the most part) in an air conditioned office.  My Florida trip was also last minute so I don't think I was rightly prepared when I arrived.  I found myself sitting out in the beautiful weather uncomfortable in my own skin and I'm not just referencing the terrible sun burn I got.  I'm unfortunately talking about being in tank tops and bathing suits and the horrified feeling that over comes you when you realize that you're not such hot stuff. I suffered through like a trooper but once I got back found myself reliving the experience in my photos:

I might be saying "Mmmm"



Seriously angry about something!

Sun burning

It took me awhile to control my laughter/tears.  I'm definitely feeling a little squishy around the edges if you know what I mean.  I have been drifting with my weight for awhile but I didn't have the energy to face it.  And when you don't have the will, there is nothing to be done but try your best and hope that the tide will turn soon. 

Fortunately, as soon as I arrived home I had my feet laced up in sneakers and lettuce in the refrigerator.  I am so thankful to be out of the blistering sun but even as the cold weather approaches I know that health is a year round venture.